It has been around 6 months since my last entry and I can't deny that my life has changed though, perhaps not as much as it should have.  In hindsight, I should be proud of myself for having come through although not with the zeal and fortitude I wish to have demonstrated.  In short, I ducked my head low, braced myself, and barreled through.  I tried not the think of anything but the end of the tunnel, the end of this horrible stretch.  

What it was, I will not say only that it threw me.  My world shifted and it has been like a rolling sea of quicksand ever since.  Coming out the other end, I am exhausted and can barely recognize my life anymore.

But I am still here, I can look in a mirror and see myself there inside, behind the stress and the worry and the pain.  I am still me.  I suppose this is the least I could have hoped for...

_alz